— Janelle Monáe (via wrists)
I will always put anyone I care about most before my own needs. I will do anything to make them happy even if I’m feeling at my lowest. I will do anything I can to make things happen for others before I do it for myself. And I never expect anything in return. Because that’s just who I am..
It’s not that it bothers me, but maybe it scares me more than anything. You can’t promise me the future but what if what I have isn’t enough for you. What if you grow tired of me. Maybe it’s my hormones acting 10x stronger than usual. But it’s hard not to compare myself. And I sit here and I pick at myself at all the things that I’m not. And all the things that they are. I love you, every part of you. Good and bad. And what we have is worth every obstacle I have to be put through. Maybe I just need the extra love and tenderness.
Forgive me for I am fragile and I feel like I can break any second. I don’t want to feel this way and I’m trying my best to be strong. Time heals all wounds. And I want that time healing spent with you. I want this. Its never changed, I’ve always wanted you to stay. But if you have to leave…i’ll always be understanding.
These past few days have ignited a feeling that has been smothered in my heart the past few months. And Im deathly afraid…